Lately, things have been rough in my fitness regime. 7 of the last 10 days I’ve been over my calorie goal (1000 cal. deficit), many of those days by a lot of calories, the worst being 1300 over.
Unsurprisingly, I have not lost any more weight. I have not enjoyed any new “added bonuses”. My workouts have been fewer and less intense. And in general my life feels more and more out of control.
My workouts have dwindled – I skipped Monday and Wednesday despite having time to exercise. I told myself I would get ahead on the school work that I’ve been neglecting. That didn’t even happen.
My nutrition has been terrible. In my “effort” to work on my school work I’ve been mindlessly snacking. This week we had chips and candy in the house. After yesterday we did not have chips and candy in the house anymore. I wish I could say they went in the trash. But I’m going to avoid buying junk food moving forward. For some reason I don’t always realize it that when I buy junk food it means I’m going to eat it.
I feel like I hit rock bottom yesterday, eating way too much junk and not exercising, but I had an epiphany moment in the evening. I had a rehearsal for my choir concert coming up this Friday and we practiced with the University Orchestra for the first time. The sound of the strings overcame my mind and the noise and just put me at peace.
Leaving rehearsal I thought about how frustrated I am with the last two weeks health wise and realized that it’s okay. I’m not going to be able to be perfect all the time. But I can catch myself when I stumble, and that’s all it is – these last two weeks were a stumble.
I can make today better than yesterday, and make tomorrow better than today.
Traditionally I’ve found setbacks to be extremely difficult – in 2010, the first time I tried calorie counting, I weighed in at 240, lost about 6 lbs, plateaued for a while, and then gave up. I’ve repeated that same cycle many times in the last 3 years.
This time I’m taking my little failure with a grain of salt, and I’m going to get right back on track. This morning I swam 4km and I think I’m poised for a good nutritious food day.
How do you stay motivated after a disappointing week or two?